abbybellarin

   I don't know if I should feel bad. My friend that is on here wrote an entry and I feel guilty for reading it. partly because she talked about me in it. Yes I know for sure it's me. But still. I feel really bad about what she is talking about. I guess I do do that. I don't commit to things very well. I mean I can. I've commited myself to being a vet but still I guess she's right. What really hurt me was when she was talking about Shakespeare. I tried to join Shakspeare just as a prop person. I really didn't have time to do it though. What she said that hurt me was that I just made an excuse and implied that I was lieing. I really wasn't. Fluffy if you are reading this. I'm really sorry for everything that you ranted about in your post. I didn't mean to hurt you. I was telling the truth it wasn't an excuse. You know how much I love being in there. It's so much fun and the most random shit happens. Ha-ha.
   But really the story thing I'm really sorry. I guess I should have told her something about that. i really just wanted to do it by myself, but when I told her she got really excited and started flinging all these ideas out. It sounded really amazing. But I wanted this to be my story. I wanted to have done something by myself. I've always had help with everything I've done. This was something that I had absolutely no help with. But she just seemed so excited and I didn't want to tell her no. Now I wish I had. Because I think in leting her help me I made it worse. See I wasn't really letting her help I guess. I mean she wrote a few pages, but I wrote most of it. She wanted to post it on a blog but I didn't want other people to read it yet. Then she wanted her teacher to read it. I mean she is awesome but still.
     I just feel really bad. The truth about the story what she was writing was amazing! I mean really awesome. But she was creating a world of her own. I already had the world i created. i think what she needs to do is start writing her own story. It would be better that way. She has an amazing talent to write. I just really want to do this on my own. But I'm really sorry Fluffy about everything! I'll even let you take a  really embarrasing video of me and post it on youtube.

My favorite paranormal story or urban legand would have to be the story of our campsite. We have our camping spot that we always go to and we call it the Meadow. It's a beautiful little spot up in the forest where hardly anyone goes. Maybe because of the story or maybe because its so far. But anyway the story.
      You see there used to be an old little cabin on that spot. Maybe about 100 or so years ago. It was just a lady living there. She used to go out and in the forest and pick berries and all that jazz. Most people thought she was crazy since she was always mumbling to herself. They say her eyes were glassy and far away as if possesed. Some nights people could hear her screaming. She would ask for help, that something was after her. But they were to frightened to get near her. So one night she was screaming as crazy as ever and then all of a sudden the screaming stopped. It just stopped mid scream. The people went to investigate. When they got there they looked in the house first. It was trashed. The lady was no where to be found in the house. They looked outside and discovered her in the tree. Hanging from the tree. They believe that she commited suicide by tying a noose around the tree and hanging herself. But of course the story got out and parents used it to scare their kids.
     They say that you can hear her scream at night still. That her spirit still roams around the forest. Now thats not really a legand. It's true. You can still see the foundation of the house. The steps up to the door and other remains of the house. The noose that was tied to the tree is still there as well. Of course its not tied like a noose now we used it to  tie up our swing. 
     So it's not really that scary I guess, but It's my favorite just because that's a spot that we go camping. There have been some really weird things that go n there too. Another reason why I told this story was because it was the first one that popped into my head. Ha-ha.

      Ah French class is so very boring today. I've had mid-terms almost all day today.  Which makes me very tired. I want to read my book but I'm not aloud to read in this class anymore. If I do than I get the book taken away. Drat. Hmm not much to talk about today. I'm still not in a very happy mood though. I'm still grounded but atleast I get to go to my Culinary thing today after school. But I'm still being shipped off to my grandmas so yeah. It wouldn't be such a bad thing I guess, but my friend that I haven't seen in forever is coming into town to stay for a week. One of my best friends. We call each other twin even though we look nothing alike. It's just a long story. But to make it shorter we got it out of a book. 
   
     Yeah I don't know what else to write about today, I'm not very talkative. I have a killer head-ache. I think it has something to do with my eyes. I've always had good vision, but when I told my aunt (she's an RN) she said that one eye might stronger or weaker than the other. So I don't know I have to get them checked soon. I think I'm gonna try and sneakily read my book. Somehow
     
      Oh that reminds me. Now I'm ahead of my friend in the book. I was loosing, but she didn't bring her book today and I'm almost finished. Just a few more chapters. So now I have to finish it today at school or I'll never win. So I better get to reading. Or trying anyway.
 
     Ooops one more thing. The official Eclipse trailer came out today. I've only seen screen caps. I promised myself that I wouldn't watch it. I hate watching trailers for the first time on computer screens. Mmm that brings back memories from the first new moon trailer that was released at the MTV movie awards. Good times good times. LOL. Just in case someone is reading this and wants to watch it just go to eclipsemovie.org they have everything posted there including the screen caps.

      Okay. I'm feeling a lot better than I was eariler. Yes I'm still mad and everything, but I'm I guess you could say more calm than I was. I've been reading today and that's calmed me some. I love how no matter how mad I am or sad books will always make me feel better. Being around animals work best but since I'm at school I just have to settle for books. Another reason why I feel better is because my friend has been able to lighten my mood. We had a sub in French today so we were able to joke around and talk about how the sub was such a well to be honest she was being a bitch. She had the audacity to take our books right out from under our noses while reading. If that's not bitchyish than I don't know what is. Anyway we starting writing notes like the good ol' days from elementry school. Except these notes were written in notepad on my laptop. The real good ol' days would be when we used paper and wrote in pig latin or our alien language that my other friends and I made up in 5th grade. 
    I'm in last period history once again and no I am not procrastinating. We had finals testing today well end of the quarter testing whatever. It was 80 multipule choice questions and fairly easy. I'm already done and probably should get to read, but I'd figure I'd write, type, whatever. You see my friend, Becca, and I are reading the same book. I'm trying to finish it before her and she is two chapters ahead of me. The book we are reading is The Sea of Monsters. Its the second book of the series Percy Jackson and the Olypians. I read the first one before her but she started reading the second one at the same time and she has more free time than I do. 
    So I think I better start reading. I got a reputation to keep up you know. The bookworm. I can devoure books in one sitting. So ttyl. Hopefully I'll be back to my more normal or crazzy self tomorrow. Lets just hope. Bye!

I may only be 15, but I already made my decision to never have kids. I'm not really a kid person. The only kids I like are animals. They are my kids. People always say that Oh when you're older you'll want kids yadda yadda yadda. Yeah yeah yeah. Whatever you say. But I know my dicision. I don't even care about getting married. I would be happy just happy living somewhere in the middle of the forest with a nice big house away from the city with many horses and other animals. Those are my babies.

          Sorry. I forgot to tell you in my anger this morning where the 10 second trailer is. Go to eclipsemovie.org They have it posted on their site. There's also alot of other news for everything to do with twilight. Best update site ever.

               So heres the thing today. I'm not very happy. Long story short I got an argument with my parents this morning causing me to be grounded and shipped off to my grandmas for pring break. So yeah not a happy camper today. Oh and just to put the cherry on top that means that I can't go to the movies this weekend to watch Alice and Wonderland and to see the Eclipse trailer. I will be without internet for two weeks. Oh and because this school is so stupid I can't even watch the 10 seconds of it that was released this morning,. Yup just a perfect sunny morning. Oh that's another thing. It's freaking sunny outside. I hate the sun, especially in Arizona. I want the rain back.
          Sorry that I won't be as random and funny and crazy and happy as I was yesterday. I'll try not to write today but I need to rant a little since you're the only thing I can tell. Ugh blah blah blah. Hmm an idea just struck me. There's a theater by my grandma's house surprisingly. A brand new harkins. I would walk, but it's a little far. Walking it would take me maybe two three hours to walk there. Maybe I can convince them to go to the movies, but that's highly unlikely. Phewy. Damn well...idk... Wait..... Ha-ha
        They are seriously smoking if they think they can make me go. They are seriously mistaken. When I get home today I'll be a good girl, clean my room, make sure all the animals are taken care of, quietly pack my stuff (and find a carrier for my cat), call my aunt and have her pick me up. This is all geting ridiculous and I'm tired of it. So when they are done being whatever then I will be happy to talk to them. 
       You may think me silly for doing this just because I got grounded, but heres the thing this argument started over them loosing my shoes and then it turned into me being a bad child and a pain in the ass. That life is so much better when I'm not around. Way to make me feel loved! But I can't talk about this anymore. Not in school. I have to control my emotions in school and it's hard enough right now. I don't want people to see me like this because my mom knows a lot of the teachers and administrators here. I don't want her to know how much that this hurt me. I won't let it show.

       Once again I'm sorry for this ranting. I don't wish for anyone to know this. But I have to tell somone and you're the best thing. Thank you journal.
       
       

THE TWILIGHT SAGA ECLIPSE 10 SECOND TEASER TRAILER RELEAES TOMARROW

ON THE INTERNET. NOT SURE WHERE YET BUT I
WILL MAKE SURE TO TELL. THE WHOLE TRAILER

COMES OUT WITH REMEMBER ME WHICH PREMEIRES

FRIDAY. THIS FRIDAY. NEXT SATURDAY THE 20th
THE TWILIGHT SAGA NEW MOON COMES OUT 
ON DVD GO TO THE OFFICIAL NEW MOON SITE
FOR DETAILS ON WHERE THERE IS MIDNIGHT
RELEASE PART NEAR YOU.

WHOA! GO TWILIGHTERS! WE ARE ON A ROLL THIS MONTH! REASON BEING IS BECAUSE THE FIRST TRAILER FOR ECLIPSE COMES OUT AND HELLO TWILIGHT GRAPHIC NOVEL!!
IN OTHER NEWS..... IM TOTALLY JOKING. JUST HAD TO WRITE THAT DOWN. PEACE OUT!

Okay. I swear I am not procrastinating. This is French Class and I have an A in here. Anyway not to get on the subject about school again. I just got done reading this one book I was reading. It's called Song of the Sparrow This is a very good book. It only took me a day to read. But it is very moving and well written. I love it. I could read this book over and over. This is the second time I've read it. The last time i read it was in 7th grade so it was just to refresh my memory. The book that I read before that was The Lightning Thief another really good book. I'm reading through these books so fast lately. I read The Lightning Thief in 3 days and then Song of the Sparrow in one. Yikes. I think I need toread a little slower. The only reason why I'm blazing through books so fast is because I'm trying not to read New Moon or Eclipse. It's so difficult! A lot more difficult then I would have thought. You see I always read the Twilight Saga books. Try hard as I might it never happens. I've read Twilight about 20 times, New Moon 5 times, Eclipse 6 times, and Breaking Dawn 6 times. Oh and I confess I read the Midnight Sun partial draft twice. I read other books to try and keep me occupied, but they ever keep me occupied for long. I read a whole series in a week. It was only for books and they each only had maybe 400 pages so they weren't that much but still a week! Now I just blew threw two 400 page books in 4 days. I would say that I have a major problem. A major addiction. I swear these books are like drugs to me. Now just to get a little off topic for a second. A funny story. Most of people know how addicting the Twilight Saga is of course. But my friend absolutely loathes twilight. Everything about it. She refuses to read anything or watch the movies. Anyway one day at school I had New Moon with me and I was trying not to read it in class. So I gave it to her. Bad idea. She started reading it aloud. But then she shut it and said ,"Oh my God I can feel it being addicting!" and flung it across the room. I laughed so hard at her. And she pouted for the rest of the class period. I now know that somewhere inside her she likes twilight and wants to read it very very badly. We are getting ready to do a listening activity so I better stop. This is another problem that I have. Journal writing.

      See I told you I would write again soon. Now it's 3rd period my dreaded Earth Sience class. I really do need to do better in this class. But it's not like I'm going to go to college to research stupid rocks and dirt. Blah. I wish I could take Biology or even chemistry. All well. Atleast the teacher hardly notices if I'm doing something other than what I'm supposed to be doing. That's always a good thing! If only I had my phone today :(. I have one of those pre-paid phones, virgin mobile. I didn't go get a new top up card so I probably won't have my phone for a little bit. It always takes me a while to get money. I need a job. And stupid Hot Topic won't let you work there until you're 16. I'm 15 it's close enough. I look older than I am. People tell me that all the time.

     Ah good ol' procastination. I really should stop doing that. But hey I'm only human ;P To be honest I really don't know what I should be doing right now. All I know is that it's about 20 minutes to lunch and my stomach won't stop talking. So it's my stomachs fault that I have no clue what is going on. It's distracting me ;p. I really get off topic of things don't I? First I was talking about class and that went all the way to me wanting and needing a job. Hee-hee. My friends make fun of me for doing that. They think I have ADHD or something, but I don't. And they will never let me forget what happend one day last year when it just boosted their cause. 
                                                                                    
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     It was during lunch and we had finished eating. We went outside so hang out like we usually did. The night before I had been on myspace looking at the funny stickers. I was telling them one that was really funny. It was about ADHD. The sticker said. I don't have ADHD I just....Oh look a squiral! I thought it was hilarious. But as I was telling them I didn't get the whole phrase out. All I got out was I don't have ADHD I just... And then a football comes flying at me and I, thinking it's going to hit, exclaim, Ahh football!! They all nearly died laughing at me. I'll admit I was laughing too, but still told them that that was mean! Now everytime I get off topic they will say I don't have ADHD I just... AHHH Footbal!.  Oh how I love my friends.

     And heres me getting off topic again! Okay maybe I should go and try and figure out what we are supposed to be doing. I think all I'm doing is making myself sound stupid. So yeah.... Um Imma go now. Bye